Order to Disorder

There are many layers to order.

Take painting, for example.

I begin with priming a canvas.

Texture needs to be taken into account. I admit that I have fear from the very start. I want to lay my primer, "just so."

Now, I have a tendency to "lay it on...THICK". It's the Van Gogh in me.

I like texture. I can see it, feel it...I like that texture is tangible.

But, I also know that texture lays a certain foundation.....that is, until I apply a brush.

Then it (the painting) takes on a life of it's own.

Suddenly, my fear goes for it's own ride.

I may surmise that if I lay it on too thick, or too thin for that matter, that the paint will react only a certain way.

Not true.

What I have to remember, is that paint will always win.

Paints are much like water. Organic. Free flowing, with much movement, flexibility, and LIFE.

I need to learn that I should abandon fear, and allow for my soul to engage with the medium of paint.

I need to allow for the layers to build.

I need to allow for mistakes...knowing that (specifically oil paints) are forgiving...they want to be poked, prodded, challenged...into their "home".

What I really need to know and understand...is to allow for mistakes. Or rather, follow the flow.

Let it flow.

It will come.

Ultimately, The journey IS the destination.

(Image: My current painting in progress....SO much more to come.)