Showing posts with label Thoughts. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Thoughts. Show all posts

Friday, January 14, 2011

Tune Up


So yesterday I received what my dear friend April refers to as a "Tune Up". I was overdue by a very long shot.

Allow me to explain.

Immediately after graduating from massage school, I dove straight into working. I was hungry for experience, and even hungrier for income. A majority of my focus over the last year has been on work, work, and more work. I've come a long way for sure, but I've been neglecting something, or I should say someONE a little too much. I've been neglecting ME. More precisely, I've neglected my spirit. Now, that's not to say I've neglected my soul. I've certainly been in tune with what I need to do, and how to spend time with my family and with my Brian. But I haven't been doing things often enough to edify my spiritual side.

While going through the massage program, I was learning about Eastern bodywork and philosophies. I had been giving and receiving this type of bodywork on a regular basis, but then stopped after I graduated.

Well, it has caught up with me. In a big way.

I had been feeling that disconnect for quite a while. An imbalance. And it all came to a head over the last few days. A series of small events occurred, and I could no longer ignore that the universe, and my spirit were telling me something.

Enter, April.
April is very dear to me. We were Comrades in Massage school, and now we are both Teaching Assistants there...but more than that, we are friends. Yesterday I met with April, and she asked me what was going on. I attempted to tell her how I was feeling, but couldn't quite succeed without the tears falling. I told her how I just felt imbalanced. I could just FEEL all the bottled up "junk" I had inside me.

After talking for a bit, she and I settled on a session of Acupressure*, with a Chakra alignment**
.....a "Tune-Up".

Bingo! Perfect.

Before we began, April asked me to select crystals from her collection, so that she could include them in the session. Interestingly enough, I had selected the same type of crystals I used to carry around with me when I was younger.
Tiger's eye.
Amethyst.
Green Aventurine.
Smoky Quartz.
Malachite.
"We are old friends", I told April. Funny how we naturally regress when in need of comfort.

I relaxed into the massage table, closed my eyes, taking several deep breaths.
April proceeded to gently surround me with the crystals I'd selected.
What happened over the next hour was.....emotional, to say the least.
I felt my body melt.
I never once opened my eyes.
I knew I was in a safe place to battle out my little demons I'd been carrying and I struggled with my body to release them. They were those self-depleting thoughts and feelings. You know the ones. They can be a cancer....locking in, then spreading, and eventually seeping in to all you do.

Well, I came head to head with each of them.
I cried them out.
And with each gradual purge, I welcomed cleansing breath.

As the session came to a close, I felt RELIEF.

April and I exchanged our experience with the session, and there's no way to really go into that kind of depth...but it was beneficial for us both.

Later, I went home and slept. Ah, blissful sleep. When I woke, I felt lighter. I felt balanced.
I rummaged through some of my old things, and found that little pouch I used to wear in High School. I used it to carry my crystals or stones in it, as little reminders of the types of energy I needed for the day. I grabbed my amethyst, popped it in, and around my neck it went. At bedtime, I placed it under my pillow....and slept like a baby.

Today, I've been reflecting on that session, and I probably will for a while. One thing I know for sure is, I will not allow myself to go that long without acknowledging my spirit, and feeding it what it needs.

*http://www.acupressure.com/
**http://www.healinggateways.com/ChakraBalancing.shtml




Tuesday, April 13, 2010

Chosen Family

Who are the members of your tribe?

They are the ones who will stick by you, NO MATTER WHAT.
We all have demons. Dark moments.
Times when we are "not our selves".
Times when we don't quite know what to do.
Times when we are uncertain of our present circumstances, or how we should handle them.

Tribe members...
They will understand.
They will feel your pain.
They will accept that even though you are suffering, they will have faith that you will pull through.
The reason?
They are of the same tribe.

They've been there.....done that.
And if they haven't...they possess the spirit to comprehend.

This is why they are your chosen family.

If you are lucky, there is at least one tribe member, who is capable of being there with you through it all.
The one who will not ever disappoint. The one who stands the test of time.
They will have the strength, and gift (in my opinion) to tell you "how it is".
The truth is not easy for this mate.
The truth is not easy for the recipient.
However...
The recipient is appreciative of what his/her tribesman has to say.
In fact, the recipient actually feels a deeper respect for the bearer of such advice.

Thats what we do.

I acknowledge that I am blessed. I am fortunate to have a handful (and more) of tribemates...members of the same clan.

Look out for one another.
Connect.
Keep watch.
Guide, and direct where you can.
You never know when it may be needed most.

"To laugh often and much; to win the respect of intelligent people and the affection of children; to earn the appreciation of honest critics and endure the betrayal of false friends; to appreciate beauty; to find the best in others; to leave the world a bit better, whether by a healthy child, a garden, or a redeemed social condition; to know even one life has breathed easier because you have lived. This is to have succeeded."
~Ralph Waldo Emerson

Monday, February 15, 2010

Sleepless Nights


What is it about sleepless nights? Sure, they can be frustrating...but on a night like tonight, it's my mind going a mile a minute in speed. My thoughts are interlaced, as if they were a finely crafted network of silky-spun spiderweb. My thoughts are tricky...fast, but then slow without any kind of notice. I suppose it's because I am allowing myself to BE in the moment. That's why nights like this don't have to be frustrating. They are good, and welcoming for the soul. We need these precious few spaces in time to get to know ourselves...allow for free-flowing thought (say that fast 3 times), and to work out in our minds any issues or dilemmas we have before us.
I'm choosing to embrace this process in me. I believe it is signaling a time of transformation and growth.

"The main symbolisms of the dragonfly are renewal, positive force and the power of life in general. Dragonflies can also be a symbol of the sense of self that comes with maturity. Also, as a creature of the wind, the dragonfly frequently represents change. And as a dragonfly lives a short life, it knows it must live its life to the fullest with the short time it has – which is a lesson for all of us."
--www.dragonfly-site.com